Ending things is never easy. No one likes to feel like a quitter. But some times, you have to look at the big picture of your life and realize that you cannot please everyone. That in all actuality, the only person you are guaranteed to please is yourself. And though that may sound selfish, I'm getting to the point in my life where I know what's best for me, and I know what I can handle - which is almost anything - but that sometimes there are things that just need to be washed away instead of endured. Things that seemed like a good idea in theory, but not in reality. At least not for Joey and I. This will mean people, places, things, bad partnerships, and so much more. Not that I necessarily want to end relationships with certain people, but by doing what's best for us, I believe that some people will take it personally. It's not meant to be personal, to them. It's meant to help me wash myself from negativity and things that are holding me back. It's time for me to start moving forward with my life and making my own decisions again. That being said, some people have certain attributes to them that I probably don't need in my life anyways.
I have a great home, a wonderful husband, baby dogs and a cat who loves me unconditionally. Joey has a great job, we have our music, and we are thinking of starting a family. There are only a few things that still brings me headaches and drama, and I'm ready to get that out of my life. All I want is to be able to do what I feel is best for me, make my own decisions, plan my own life events, and be friends with only the people who bring me happiness... without being told what to do. If I make a mistake, it will be MY mistake... not mistakes others are making on my behalf.
I don't want to make enemies. This is the last things on my mind. But I also don't want to be walked all over either, and it's time that my mamma comes out in me and puts that to a stop. So, with that said, here is my New Year's Resolutions:
* Make Music. Play venues. Find Fans. Let people hear my voice. Whether alone, or with Dirty Derringer and Southern Gypsies. (Don't be afraid to do solo shows because comfort comes in pairs.)
* Set the record straight. Move forward from there, no matter the outcome, with a positive outlook.
*Nurture old relationships that have been neglected. I am a recluse. I love being alone for the most part, but this has effected me seeing and talking to old friends and family. And whether or not I want to put on pants should have nothing to do with if I call my mom or not.
* Nurture new relationships. I'm very picky when it comes to who I hang out with.. who I call friends. Mostly because people tend to have their own agendas and I always end up in it's wake. So, I'm picking a few, and I will be building those in the new year.
* Get out more. Granted, we only have one vehicle, therefore, it's difficult for me to get out when Joey has to work so much. And that means I'd have to take him to work, do my thing, go home, head back into town, wait, pick him up. But, I could probably manage that at least once a week. I also use my shows as an excuse. "I have a show this week, I'm getting out." Well, yes, and no. When I have a show I get to hang out Brittany or Joey on a level that most people don't get to enjoy, BUT that's not the only level I should be enjoying. Going to other live music shows, to the movies, to my parents, out to dinner, to a friend's house. These things have been neglected. I vow to work on them.
* Have more date nights. We used to be really good about Having date night every weekend before we moved to Stonewall. But we love our house so much that we don't ever want to leave it anymore. We need to get and about again. (Date night every other week can consist of doing movies and dinner at home. But we need to go out at least every other week, if nothing more than to get us out of the house.)
For now, this list will do. I feel like it should be larger, but something may come to mind before the new year and I'll add it, I'm sure.
My hope for you is that you do the same. Cut the crap - the drama, the fair weather friends, don't be a doormat. I may have shared this video before, but it's my guideline for the new year. Until next time!
